I was never treated like a girl. I am in a journey of seeking the Lord for my sexual brokenness. I have been sexually abused in many ways and I have sexually abused others along my path. My mother tried to kill me when I was a little girl. My father treated me like a boy. I was rejected from the moment my parents knew I was to be born. I have lived a lesbian lifestyle for 15 years and I am struggling with leaving it to fully live my life for the Lord and His calling on my life. I am struggling with masturbation, pornography and self worth. I hate myself.



Rom 5:1   Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, Rom 5:2   through whom also we have obtained our introduction by faith into this grace in which we stand; and we exult in hope of the glory of God. Rom 5:3   And not only this, but we also exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; Rom 5:4   and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope; Rom 5:5   and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us. Rom 5:6   For while we were still helpless, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. Rom 5:7   For one will hardly die for a righteous man; though perhaps for the good man someone would dare even to die. Rom 5:8   But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.


2Cr 5:16   Therefore from now on we recognize no one according to the flesh; even though we have known Christ according to the flesh, yet now we know {Him} {in this way} no longer. 2Cr 5:17   Therefore if anyone is in Christ, {he is} a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come. 2Cr 5:18   Now all {these} things are from God, who reconciled us to Himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation, 2Cr 5:19   namely, that God was in Christ reconciling the world to Himself, not counting their trespasses against them, and He has committed to us the word of reconciliation.


Dennis says

In Christ we are no longer defined by our past. I found healing in going back to each point of hurt and failure in my memory and asking the Lord to show me HIS point of view. From His perspective I was able to build altars where I had formerly only known disappointment. I was able to look back and say ‘Yes, I went through that crap but look what my God has done.’ I will be sending you something to encourage you in you journey.

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