I've just repented of my most recent homosexual activity with another man. To be honest, I'm scared of what's going to happen next. Every time I get back up I just keep falling down. Hopefully, when I get tested, my results will be negative. Then I'll have to go back in 3 months and get tested again because of last night. Many bridges have been burned and I can't go back to the way things were. My only hope is that God can turn it around for good. I've got so much potential but I can't seem to get my feet off the ground. Sometimes I just wish that Christ would return already but that's selfish. Many people still need to be saved. I just feel like I'm just doing such a lousy job here on earth but I don't mean to. Anyways, I guess the point of this piece of writing to say that I'm just plain scared!

Do not rejoice over me, O my enemy. Though I fall I will rise; Though I dwell in darkness, the LORD is a light for me. Micah 7:8 NASB

The important thing is that you keep getting back up and that you run to Jesus each and every time. It is there you will find rest and peace and grace to keep going. No temptation defines any man. No test result defines any man. We are who our Father says we are. Please seek help and encouragement at

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